. Again sorry if I do" How do I respond to this text?

Question: how do I respond to this text I apologize for making you feel the way you do. This is whybi asked you what I could say to make things better but instead of answering my question you went on about something elseYou agreed when I stated that our communication was the problem and also agreed when I was specific. So we agreed on that but for some reason continued to keep going about the issue. We should've just left it at that and both of us take time to look at our selves and see where we are doing thisAnd I'm not just gonna say it's you. It's also me. It takes 2 to discuss. Obviously I'm doing something that's making you doubt. I just wish you were outright about it and just say what it isIt's also very confusing and frustrating when one day you say you trust me fully to let me lead but then another day express doubt after doubt. That in turn makes me doubt. It's ok to express doubt one time cuz I hear you bur to do it over and over is too much. Idk if it's some kind of shit test to see if I can handle your waves of emotion but I can assure you I can and no one can should handle it over and over all day every day though. This is just how I view things and perceive things as a manI understand you ad a woman have the need to express your feelings and the need to be understood. I do my best to reassure you of your fearsAnd I'm sorry if I take things the wrong way and make the fear worseI'll take responsibility in that. I see how I could come off that wayThose videos I sent weren't a reflection of you today but a reflection of my fears of what was. My worry is I'll do everything I can and still feel like before. No way am I saying you're doing this today. So maybe you're right I'm still working on the traumaMaybe I'm trying too hard. Idk anymoreThis is exactly how I felt before. I'm sure you remember me saying this to you beforeLook I think when it comes down to it I'm not doing a very good job at making you feel secure. You're obviously afraid of abandonment and have every reason to feel this way. I think you may be right that the distance isn't helping much eitherWhen I say certain things obviously I must trigger feels of abandonment in you. So I need to re read our texts and make sure I identify where I go wrong and change itI also need to figure out when you're venting where I take things personal. Venting is venting and maybe it's me who is blurring the line between venting and blame